My First, Last and Lost Love
When “love” comes in your life, just open your “heart” and let it go inside you. People will ask you “Are you in Love”? Just say, “No, Love is in me!” Somebody had said this to me, but I took it lightly then and laughed at it and walked away……… Now that some 8 years or so have passed and she is not around anywhere, I do realize and understand every word of her, the reason of that Intensity………….. That Passion in “her” Voice.
Most of my friends speak of being informal; having a deep, intimate friendship, where one speaks to other without having even the slightest hesitation. We were almost the same age. However, she was a year senior to me and we were from the same school – ST.AUGUSTINE’S DAY SCHOOL – KOLKATA. Nilufar was my mate and a best friend.
It so happened, that when I arrived at the Middle Section from the Primary Section of our School in a separate building, I saw her. She is very jolly as well as a cute girl with whom everybody would want to be friend. However, there is a saying that, “Time waits for none”.
But, it is also true that, “Everybody has its own good time”. No matter even if you try more than your capacity or even strike your head against the wall, during the odds, you won’t achieve success. But, if it’s your time, no matter whatever are the hurdles in your way, you will overcome everything to make a head start towards your destination.
Similarly, when my time came, it brought about a new ray of hope and changed every aspects of my life. My friendship with Nilufar was yet another wonderful story of that time. It was during the Annual Examinations of our school in the year 2003 and the sitting arrangement was such that here will be 4 students in a row – 2 students of Class 7 and in between 2 students of Class 8 will be seated.
I sat between Nilufar and one of her class-mate. And, to my great expectation or surprise, whatever one may call it, starting from the examinations of 2003 for the rest of my school life, the sitting arrangements of all exams was the same – we both sat Together,- either “side – by – side” or “in – front and behind”. That is how, we became friends from 2003 and from then onwards it went on and on……………………………………… And before, I could get out of this Trauma, it was too late… I fell in LOVE with her.
My friendship with Nilufar was turning point of my life. She proved to be a guide to me. Earlier, I thought that my liking for her, was just an Infatuation but slowly and slowly, I realized that I was totally wrong. I fell in love with her because the feeling that I used to have had for her, I would not have for any other friend.
After that, from the next year (2004) onwards, we used to meet frequently – both inside and outside the school. Since, we both belonged to the Netaji House (Red), we both used to play pranks on each other. While sometimes, when I’m at the Network Duty (Traffic) arrive school early and wait near the gate in order to tease her while she enters. I always used to stand beside her in the Assembly, just to have a glimpse of her and giving myself a chance to talk to her.
Years passed on and on………………….
And finally, the great day and year (2007) arrived when the out-going students of Class 12 were being a Grand Farewell from the school before the Board Examinations.
That was another historic and memorable moment for me. Though cheerful, yet sad because after that day, I won’t be able to meet her any more, but at the same time, though I wanted still I was not able to convey my feelings to her.
I was well acquainted in some corner of my heart that I had loved her and love her for the rest of my life. I will not be able to place anyone else in the position, I had given to Nilufar.
That day, she was wearing a Black sari, (a true symbol of Farewell) with white design printed on it. She was looking as gorgeous that I cannot convey with words. If one would see her that day, no one could take one’s eyes away from her. The most sensational moment was then, when to everybody’s surprise, she was coroneted with the Miss Augustine’s Award, 2007.
Then, years passed by and I also passed out of school (ISC 2008 Batch) following her the next year. Thinking that, she would be studying http://B.Com, I visited her house, to which I found out from her mother, that she wasn’t studying http://B.Com but was pursuing a Degree in Law under University of Calcutta.
Until then, I had nothing from her but just the school magazine “Gyroscope” where I used to get her class photographs as a memoir which I have preserved carefully. Further, to the height of my bad luck, I had visited her twice, but on both occasions she wasn’t at home any of the days. It started from then, when slowly – slowly, I started to realize that I was in love with her.
Actually, when you are in close contact with your near and dear ones, you would never understand the feelings but once you are far apart, you come to know that every moment of life is very precious.
To be honest, I’m proudly saying that I was in love with Nilufar while in school (2003), but was not able to convey my feelings. She may have someone else in her life but I’m not at all jealous or sad because it’s an absolute fact that “one always may not get everything in his/her life that the person wishes”.
And at the same time, whoever gets Nilufar as his life – partner will be a very happy person. Equally, standing on this day, I even wish to say that I love Nilufar even now and I will love her “until I die”, since she was my First and Last Love of my Life.
Lastly, to say only a few words
• I Love You – NILUFAR
And
Even more
• I Miss You – My Friend.
That was the end of my so – called “LOVE STORY”.
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