REGRET
I want to tell everyone, that we must think and decide everything better and think about the affect that will happen in the future. Because one day we will regret what we have chosen and I fell in the same mistake over and over again, and believe me, never hurt anyone you love because karma does exist.
I was a playgirl back then, I never cared with boy's feelings when I suddenly told them to "breakup". But one day my friend introduced me to a cute decent boy. My friend told me I should stop messing around with boy's feelings, and stand only for one boy. My new journey started on cold winter. He was the smartest boy I've ever met, glasses and sparkling eyes made me drown into him. It was hard to convince him to be my boyfriend but finally he fell for me too.He helped me in every way. He called me every night to say the most sweet words. Love's atmosphere was everywhere, for awhile I forgot about my past and everything seemed like brand new for me. The way he cared me, held me and understood me. "truly, I love him" I said it in my heart. And I have reason for living in a good way at the moment. I still remember how I used to smile that time.
But rough times came along, when he started to be a busy person, and I used to spend my Saturday night all alone. One Saturday night, I went to walk with my bestie. We visited a cafe and there, everything started to change. I saw a late twenties boy drinking beer and keep looking at me, I tried to ignore him but I couldn't so I came close to his table and poked him
"what are you looking at dude?"
"you,"he answered with cold accent
"fine , whats the matter?" curiosity coming trough my head
"you look so beautiful,my name is Saif"
a businessman from middle east. For a moment evil told me that I have to seduce him and make him as my other boyfriend for my lonely times. Our conversation ended at exchanging mobile numbers. I can see from his eyes, he is lovely too. Iy bestie knew this but she doesn't knew we were exchanging number.
7 months later..
I started to feel bored with my boyfriend, most of time I ignored him and I used to meet with Saif without his knowing. I enjoyed more with Saif, because my boyfriend never spends Saturday night with me anymore. In a cold Monday night I confessed to him I was cheating on him, he couldn't believe me and tried to convince his self, the love atmosphere has gone, he asked me why but seems I never give him the clear answer. One thing I remember he said " I have loved you, and you know you are the only one, but why you did this to me" but in a rough way I just ignored him again and left him freezing behind the door. I called up Saif and asked him to go date with me. While my boyfriend still tried to call and ask me back, but I never responded him anymore.
Time went on, I never met him anymore , I am happy with Saif, but when I walked in the park I saw him with a girl and they both laughed happily. I didn't mean to bother them but I wanted to know how is he. So I called him and he looked at me . He told me he has moved on and found a new good girl, and they will be engaged soon. The girl smiled at me, I held a lot of words in my throat and congratulated them. Then i left them and walked in tears. Suddenly I heard my phone rang and it was Saif. He told me he will go back to middle east and he thinks we can't continue this because we have different culture and his family will not accept me and it was like a thunderstorm for me. I convinced him everything will be alright but he hung up the phone. I sent hundred messages but he didn't reply any of it.
That night I blamed my self for not choosing the option that will lead me back to him and happy ever after whether I chose another option that ruined everything in my life till this day and living in a scary past that always haunted me, because my journey didn't stop here.
I want to tell everyone, that we must think and decide everything better and think about the affect that will happen in the future. Because one day we will regret what we have chosen and I fell in the same mistake over and over again, and believe me, never hurt anyone you love because karma does exist.I was a playgirl back then, I never cared with boy's feelings when I suddenly told them to "breakup". But one day my friend introduced me to a cute decent boy. My friend told me I should stop messing around with boy's feelings, and stand only for one boy. My new journey started on cold winter. He was the smartest boy I've ever met, glasses and sparkling eyes made me drown into him. It was hard to convince him to be my boyfriend but finally he fell for me too.He helped me in every way. He called me every night to say the most sweet words. Love's atmosphere was everywhere, for awhile I forgot about my past and everything seemed like brand new for me. The way he cared me, held me and understood me. "truly, I love him" I said it in my heart. And I have reason for living in a good way at the moment. I still remember how I used to smile that time.
But rough times came along, when he started to be a busy person, and I used to spend my Saturday night all alone. One Saturday night, I went to walk with my bestie. We visited a cafe and there, everything started to change. I saw a late twenties boy drinking beer and keep looking at me, I tried to ignore him but I couldn't so I came close to his table and poked him
"what are you looking at dude?"
"you,"he answered with cold accent
"fine , whats the matter?" curiosity coming trough my head
"you look so beautiful,my name is Saif"
a businessman from middle east. For a moment evil told me that I have to seduce him and make him as my other boyfriend for my lonely times. Our conversation ended at exchanging mobile numbers. I can see from his eyes, he is lovely too. Iy bestie knew this but she doesn't knew we were exchanging number.
7 months later..
I started to feel bored with my boyfriend, most of time I ignored him and I used to meet with Saif without his knowing. I enjoyed more with Saif, because my boyfriend never spends Saturday night with me anymore. In a cold Monday night I confessed to him I was cheating on him, he couldn't believe me and tried to convince his self, the love atmosphere has gone, he asked me why but seems I never give him the clear answer. One thing I remember he said " I have loved you, and you know you are the only one, but why you did this to me" but in a rough way I just ignored him again and left him freezing behind the door. I called up Saif and asked him to go date with me. While my boyfriend still tried to call and ask me back, but I never responded him anymore.
Time went on, I never met him anymore , I am happy with Saif, but when I walked in the park I saw him with a girl and they both laughed happily. I didn't mean to bother them but I wanted to know how is he. So I called him and he looked at me . He told me he has moved on and found a new good girl, and they will be engaged soon. The girl smiled at me, I held a lot of words in my throat and congratulated them. Then i left them and walked in tears. Suddenly I heard my phone rang and it was Saif. He told me he will go back to middle east and he thinks we can't continue this because we have different culture and his family will not accept me and it was like a thunderstorm for me. I convinced him everything will be alright but he hung up the phone. I sent hundred messages but he didn't reply any of it.
That night I blamed my self for not choosing the option that will lead me back to him and happy ever after whether I chose another option that ruined everything in my life till this day and living in a scary past that always haunted me, because my journey didn't stop here.
SOURCE BY-NADYA
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