PAINFUL STORY

                     MY PAIN IS FOREVER


Jake. That's his name. Jake. He was my first kiss and I thought he would never hurt me. I'm not going to say our love last forever because I knew that wasn't going to happen. I did think he wasn't going to hurt me. He told me and I quote "I'll always be right here for you." 

A few weeks later, he broke up with me in a note. He left it on my door like a pathetic person. I was crushed. I acted so strong but when I got home I cried myself to bed. After that, he dated a few other girls and I dated some other guys but I was never really over him. He was my first love after all. Come to now. He's been in and out of my life. 

I know I sound like a stupid girl but I'm not. I know I should just leave him alone and get over it but It's hard because I see him everyday and he was my first time, first love, and first kiss. He says all these amazing things before we get together then he'll be a dick and disappear on me then months later come back.

I miss everything about him his touch, his smell, his laugh, and his smile. 

I am a hopelessly romantic person and I have these dreams that one day he'll see what's right in front of him but I know he won't. He even told people I was his biggest mistake. 

I've dated the best people I ever could and they really loved me but I just can't get over him as much as I want to.I'm just his booty-call and I sick of it but he's like a drug to me. 

I want to break this habit though. All he's ever done is build me up and then break me done. He leaves me heartbroken and he can walk alway without a scratch. It's like he feels no pain. He feels nothing for anyone but himself. I just want him so bad yet I don't. I want real love and he will never give it to me. 

He will never actually tell me "I love you and I want to be with you again." I know him as well as I know myself.I need the real thing. Love. He will never love anyone but himself. He's called girls hot. When I see him around my heart aches but then I see he never even loved me.

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